Thursday, July 31, 2008

Thursday, July 31, 2008

I guess I haven’t said anything about my problem with sleeping. Well here it is: I stay up all night and then I sleep half of the day. I can tell it upsets my grandma. She doesn’t say it does but I can tell. She wants to do stuff but she is either sleeping or I am sleeping anytime we could. I could sleep forever if I could sleep. It’s just that I can’t sleep if I’m not dead tired. And the only way I can get dead-tired is if I lay around on my bed for a million thousand years looking at the computer screen. Then finally at like six o’clock in the morning I go to bed and sleep until 4:00. So most of these blog entries have been written at one or two o’clock in the morning. Grandma let me stay up late last night, but tonight she says I have to go to bed early because we have to go shopping. For a new bathing suit for me because I am fat and don’t fit in my old one. We’re going to look at Goodwill and see if they have any name brands. I can’t wait. I wish we could do it right now, then I wouldn’t have to worry about getting enough sleep. Well that’s about it…

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Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Today I went with Sharon to the gym, and I burned practically a hundred calories but then when I got home I ate and I gained it all back. It’s so easy to gain weight, yet so hard to lose weight. It isn’t fair!! I made a new website,http://www.tweengirloftoday.bravehost.com so if you want to check it out please do so and tell your friends too. It’s going to be a place for tween girls and a lot of them will come and share advice and questions and have a lot of fun. I hope someone visits! I’ve been spreading the word around Yahoo! Answers, hoping some tween girl will find it and want to come to it. This site is gonna rule!! Maybe someday I can upgrade to it being a regular domain and not a subdomain. Tomorrow I want to go to the gym again with Sharon and attempt to lose some more. It shouldn’t be so hard, but it is. The machine says I’m burning calories, but I’m not losing any weight at all. I weigh about 170 pounds. I am so fat it’s hard for me to believe. I can still fit into kid size shirts, for some reason. But I have moved on to plus-size adult clothes, size 14. It really bugs me to be so fat. I feel ugly. I am such a hypocrite. I encourage the tween girls to think positively about themselves but then I turn around and tell my diary that I feel the same way I told them to try not to! It’s just so confusing…
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